Sunday, May 15, 2016

Richmond, VA/ Growth

Merry meet Friends!
Michelle here, bringing lots of love and light!

"Some periods of our growth are so confusing that we don't even recognize that growth is happening...Those long periods when something inside ourselves seems to be waiting, holding its breath, unsure about what the next step should be, eventually become the periods we wait for, for it is in those periods that we realize that we are being prepared for the next phase of our life and that, in all probability, a new level of the personality is about to be revealed." ~ Alice Walker

"It is always the simple things that change our lives.  And these things never happen when you are looking for them to happen.  Life will reveal answers at the pace life wishes to do so.  You feel like running, but life is on a stroll.  This is how God does things." ~ Donald Miller

I am entering another phase of my life so I understand well what Alice Walker is saying in the above quote.  When we begin to realize that the growth period, which can seem as if nothing is happening, is actually preparing us for the next phase, we begin to look for them. Questions arise about what this phase will reveal.  Who am I becoming?  What will I do?  This is frightening and exhilarating at the same time.  The possible loss of my job has me thinking about the next steps for my life.

 My job is being phased out but the new job title is exactly what we do now.  The new title is Peer Recovery Coach and full time.  The pay is much  higher than the current rate.  I am not interested in a full time position.  There is a part time position entitled Crisis Triage Center Peer Specialist. My volunteer work with Safe Harbor qualifies me for this position.  The hours are flexible and the pay rate is higher than the recovery coach.  I believe I would like this work and it would afford me the opportunity to work on my own business.

My passion is to work with women.  I intend to do this via facilitating workshops, seminars, and retreats.  I have an upcoming workshop on June 4, 2016, entitled "Step Into Your Dreams".  There is a saying that says: "We teach what we most need to learn."  I think that's fitting because we understand what individuals are feeling. Essentially we are teaching ourselves as well.  I certainly will be. Fear has, for the most part, kept me from doing what I strongly desire to do.  The fear hasn't so much been a lack of confidence in my abilities as it has been wondering what others might think.  If I continue with that line of thinking I would never do anything.

Here are the questions that I ask myself.  Do you have a strong desire to do this?  Are you capable of doing this?  Do you think it has benefit to your audience?   The answers to all of the questions are YES!  Each time I feel any doubt or fear I ask myself the questions again.  I will continue to do so until the event, if the fear continues.  Doing this workshop is a dream of mine.  I am "stepping into my dreams", at least one of them.  Experiencing doubt and fear and overcoming them gives me the experience, as it were, to aid others in doing the same.  

I wasn't able to attend the workshop in Maryland on Saturday that I wanted to attend because there was no one to work in my place. The workshop was with Sage-ing International.  The title was Awakening the Sage Within.  The organization deals with conscious aging.  I would like to facilitate a wisdom circle here in Richmond. The workshop isn't required but I wanted to have more information. I still plan to facilitate the circle.  I have all of the documents necessary.  The simple things will change our lives.  A chance reading of something will provide an opportunity previously unknown when one wasn't looking for it. 

On Friday I went to DC to measure the staircase at the venue for my daughter's wedding.  She has a vision of what she wants to see upon entering.  Since I am an artsy/crafty person, I can assist her in making it come true and save her additional expense. We can't decorate until 2pm and the wedding is at 5.  She doesn't want me to undertake too much (I'm doing the bouquets) and not be dressed in time.  Of course I feel as if I can do it all. LOL  I enlisted the help of a friend to come up and do it, with my help if needed.  I'm mentioning this because making the bouquets and decorating a portion of the venue is an opportunity to earn money in the future and feeds that creative crafty side.

I believe it's the Korean culture that says at 60 one becomes a child again and should only have joy in their lives.  I'm all for that!  I anticipate a joyful future doing what I love and using the gifts that God/Goddess/All That Is have given as I "step into my dreams". Won't you do the same regardless of age?

Until next Sunday,
Merry part and merry meet again,
Blessed be,
Gypsi Mama Michelle

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